Struggling and discouraged

Hi everyone. I'm sorry I haven't written soon than this but I have been very disgusted with myself and the whole process. I had my first fill and then saw the doctor 2 weeks later which was about a week and a half a go for a second fill. I have noticed no difference from either of them and I'm eating quite a bit of food. I guess I had something in my head telling me when I did this is was going to be really easy and its not by any means. I am still struggling with my food addiction and my compulsive eating. I have to continue to determine when I think I'm hungry if its mental or physical and so far the mental is winning. I'm also still having a problem not drinking while I'm having my meals. I'm not eating the way I was eating before the surgery, my body couldnt' hold that much food I don't think at this point but Dr. Bass and Tiffany told me not to get discouraged, that its normal until they get me in the "green zone" which is eating a small portion of food for a meal and getting satisfied and not being hungry in between my meals. I'm really looking forward to that time. I'm down 13 pounds but its been 2 months today since surgery and I think it could be at least double that.
Would I do the surgery if I had it to do over again with what I know at this very moment, ABSOLUTELY!!! If I hadn't had the surgery I would probaby be 13 pounds heavier so its working, I just can't expect miracles overnight. It took a long time to put the weight on and it will take a while to get it back off.
Please hang in there with me and keep watching the posts. I see the doctor again this Thursday for a 3rd fill and I hope that will make at least a small difference from the last 2.
Have a great week and see you in the posts soon, DeAnna

I want to introduce you to my doctor, Thomas Bass

Taken from the website for Dr. Thomas Bass in Hollywood, FL.
Dr. Thomas Bass, MD, FACS is a board-certified general surgeon specializing in bariatric surgery. Dr. Bass received his MD from the Medical College of Virginia and completed his surgical residency training at the Milton S. Hershey Medical Center at Pennsylvania State University. In addition, he completed fellowships in both Minimally Invasive Surgery and Surgical Critical Care and holds additional board certification in Surgical Critical Care. His interest in weight loss surgery began during his minimally invasive surgery fellowship, where he witnessed first-hand the life-changing effects that weight loss surgery can have. Dr. Bass is also a proctor for the Lap-Band System, and is responsible for training other surgeons in Florida that are interested in performing the procedure.

EDUCATlON & TRAINING
M.D., Medical College of Virginia
Fellowship, Minimally Invasive Surgery, The Milton S. Hershey Medical Center
Fellowship, Surgical Critical Care, The Milton S. Hershey Medical Center
Residency, Department of Surgery, Division of General Surgery, The Milton S. Hershey Medical Center
Internship, Department of Surgery, Division of General Surgery, The Milton S. Hershey Medical Center

Cerifications and Licensure
Board Certified, American Board of Surgery, General Surgery
Board Certified, American Board of Surgery, Surgical Critical Care
Medical License, State of Florida

Memberships
Member, American Society of Bariatric Surgeons
Member, Society of American Gastrointestinal Endoscopic Surgeons
Fellow, American College of Surgeons

For more information about Dr. Bass, please click on his name above and it will take you to the Hollywood Bariatrics website.

Its been a great week so far

Just wanted to drop in and post a little today. I'm dealing with my mental part of this very well i think.... I am realizing after many years that food really isn't that big of a deal in massive proportaions. I think its been a habit and of course I'm an emotional eater. I have been so compulsive with my eating for many years I didn't even think anything about it. I did see a psychologist to get an evaluation before being approved for surgery and through talking to him I realized that my out of control eating started when I lost my grandmother in 1994. I was heavy before but no where near this heavy and I wasn't compulsively eating, just eating the wrong foods, fast food, pie, cakes, etc. My grandmother raised me and I was very close to her, as close as I have ever been to anyone and dont' think I'll ever feel that again. She was the big love in my life and my reason for being the person that I am today. She was a very caring and loving person and a crafty person and it all rubbed off on me. She got brain cancer in 1994 and chose to not do any chemo or radiation treatments. She lived 9 weeks from the time we found out but it was a good 9 weeks and I stayed with her from the time she woke up until she went to bed at night. When granny passed away we didn't have a funeral or a memorial service which was what she wanted so I really didn't get to say goodbye to her in the traditional way. I really believe that I have been trying to fill the void of her not being here with food to comfort me. Its an eye opener that has come 14 years after her death.
I truly believe I will be able to conquer this eating demon that I have, the lapband surely is going to help that since I can't eat the way I was eating before. Also with alot of prayer with my Lord and Savior and asking for patience and strength will get me through. I also have alot of support from my boyfriend Ron, my family and my friends.
Tomorrow is my first doctors appt. since the surgery and I can't wait to get weighed and see how I did. I will be posting when I get home with the good news!!