Checking in for an update

Just checking in to say hi to my blog followers and post a picture my boyfriend Ron took of me last Wednesday night the 10th, before a Christmas party with my cardmaking group that meets every Wednesday at our local Bettys Stamp Pad. They all went to Olive Garden and then back to the store to open gifts and have dessert. I didn't go to dinner, ate at home and met them at the store and took a sugar free pudding cup to have while they were doing their treats. I was very satisfied with the pudding and it didn't bother me seeing them eat the "Norman Love" treats.

On a more current note, I'm doing great, feeling good except for my bad right knee which is keeping me from the gym right now until I can get it where I can work out some. Had an injection in it yesterday and they again reminded me that I need a total right knee replacement. I'm hoping as the weight comes off, the pain will decrease and I can put the surgery off for a long time. I'm eating well, a little more than the 2 oz becuase I'm hungry at meal time but Tiffany said that is normal with the swelling going down in my stomach. I'm becoming more aware of my mental vs. physical hunger. When it think I'm hungry, I have a large glass of water and its going away until meal time. I'm not snacking in between meals either which is great. Its a big change from eating every hour on the hour before the surgery.

Watch my posts, I'm going to be posting about Dr. Bass, he's a great doctor and he and Tiffany are wonderful to work with. I would recommend him to anyone and everyone no matter where you are located. I also have to say again that the stay at Memorial Regional Hospital in Hollywood, FL was an experience in itself. The staff was great and I felt like a princess in my room. Not the treatment I'm usually used to but a very wonderful experience.

Its been a great week so far

Just wanted to drop in and post a little today. I'm dealing with my mental part of this very well i think.... I am realizing after many years that food really isn't that big of a deal in massive proportaions. I think its been a habit and of course I'm an emotional eater. I have been so compulsive with my eating for many years I didn't even think anything about it. I did see a psychologist to get an evaluation before being approved for surgery and through talking to him I realized that my out of control eating started when I lost my grandmother in 1994. I was heavy before but no where near this heavy and I wasn't compulsively eating, just eating the wrong foods, fast food, pie, cakes, etc. My grandmother raised me and I was very close to her, as close as I have ever been to anyone and dont' think I'll ever feel that again. She was the big love in my life and my reason for being the person that I am today. She was a very caring and loving person and a crafty person and it all rubbed off on me. She got brain cancer in 1994 and chose to not do any chemo or radiation treatments. She lived 9 weeks from the time we found out but it was a good 9 weeks and I stayed with her from the time she woke up until she went to bed at night. When granny passed away we didn't have a funeral or a memorial service which was what she wanted so I really didn't get to say goodbye to her in the traditional way. I really believe that I have been trying to fill the void of her not being here with food to comfort me. Its an eye opener that has come 14 years after her death.
I truly believe I will be able to conquer this eating demon that I have, the lapband surely is going to help that since I can't eat the way I was eating before. Also with alot of prayer with my Lord and Savior and asking for patience and strength will get me through. I also have alot of support from my boyfriend Ron, my family and my friends.
Tomorrow is my first doctors appt. since the surgery and I can't wait to get weighed and see how I did. I will be posting when I get home with the good news!!