Happy 2009

My mom and I in Biloxi Mississippi 1994
One of my favorite Glamour Shots 1994

Well a new year is on us and I hope its a great one for everyone, full of love, happiness, good health and prosperity. This year was the first year in a long long time that my New years resolution was NOT to go on a diet. I do need to figure out my mind this year and listen to my stomach instead of my head. I'm struggling a bit, eating more food than I thought I would be able to and not really getting a full feeling when I eat. I even went to a chinese buffet which is my favorite food. I stayed away from any rice or noodles, etc. I enjoyed some shrimp, crab meat, a piece of chicken and some mushrooms. I did have one of those little puffy pieces of bread that they roll in sugar, I shouldn't have had that I know. I think I did pretty good though. I see Dr. Bass in 2 days for my first fill and I hope that will make a difference. I weighed on my scale here at home and it says I'm 323.8 but I'm not sure the scale is correct. I'll post my weight when I see the doctor on Wednesday. I started at 339 at his office so that would mean I have lost 15.2 pounds in 33 days. I would love for that to be correct but with the amount of food I have been eating, I'm not sure that is right. I'm having a little bit of a hard time with the fluid thing. I'm not supposed to have anything to drink 30 minutes before my meals, during my meal, or 30 minutes after my meal. For those of you that know me personally, you know I have a bottle of diet green tea with me at all times and that has been really hard for me not to drink for that hour. I need to work on that more. I also have not had my protein shake for a couple of weeks, I have been eating well over the amount of protein I'm supposed to have in a day so I didn't think I needed that too. I will talk to Dr. Bass and Tiffany about that when I see them this week. I'm also struggling with the hunger all day, my stomach does growl which means I'm reall hungry but in between I mentally think I'm hungry and I have to really work around that one. Starting today, I'm going to drink a glass of tap water when I feel like I'm hungry and see if that doesn't make it go away. I'm keeping busy with making cards and jewelry but I still get that urge to want to eat.

I have attached a few photos of myself when I had lost 94 pounds back in 1994. I can't wait to get back down to this weight, I was about 174 in these pictures and my goal is 165 so if I can get back to this, I would be very very happy. :)

See you in a couple of days!!